being sad is painful, but trying not to be sad hurts more.

ah well, i've decided to stop moping about it.

doesnt matter, we gave our best. thats all that counts.

cheerup everyone! (:

OHHHH MY GAWWWWWWWD.

WHAT IS THIS MAN?!?!?! I CANNOT BELIEVE IT.

SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME THIS IS ALL JUST A NIGHTMARE.

THIS CANT BE HAPPENING.

FUCK.

wtf. wtf. wtf. i absolutely CANNOT believe that we lost to nan hua! WTH. its only the first round and we lost one game! and its not like its rgs or sports school! its nan hua.. oh gosh. but i think they really "wanted the ball" more than us luh. and their shooting percentage was whoaaaaaaaa. the shooter's good.

but its alright people! we lost not because they're a better team. we lost cos they played better than us just this once only! we just were'nt playing our best. with two of our main players not being able to play. of course we were at a disadvantage. so dont be too upset over the lost yeh? none of you are to be blamed solely. if its someone's fault, its EVERYONE'S fault.

all we can do now is. really really focus during trg and not fool around when coach aint there watching us. we gotta be real disciplined. and apply what we learn during trg in the games. i know its hard. but YES! WE CAN DO IT!

i cant believe what coach said to us today! she was like "ure the most useless ij team i've ever coached. yall are such a disgrace and dont deserve to wear the ij jersey at all. ETC ETC" THANKS ALOT COACH! pffffft. so much for the encouragement! as if we weren't feeling terrible enough! HUR.

NEVERMIND. we should just ignore her discouragement part and PROVE HER WRONGGGG.

cheerup people! ITS NOT OVER! we gotta take this lost as a fuel to win our next match!(as karlo said. haha)

bob the builder, can we fix it?!
bob the bulider, YES WE CAN! (((:

why do i get all jealous when i see u talking to other girls?

here's a few things i wanna do before i reach the age of 16:

1) go clubbing. im really curious what its like. HA. comeon, no stereotyping here.
2) sneak into nc 16 movies! dammit. i cant believe i havent done so
3) pon school

okay i realised i've been so"good" all these years that i havent done all these shit. i suddenly have this adrenalin rush just thinking about doing all these stuff. haha stupid, i know.

SPORTS DAY 2007!

the long awaited day has finally arrived! (: finally i can wash ma hands off all these house SHIT. yeh babeh!

omg. i swear. ms **** and tjl are TOTALLY BIAS. wtf. blue house was disqualified an unreasonable number of FOUR times! wth luh. BIAS BIAS. pffffffft.

BUT NONETHELESS, we still emerged as overall 1st runner up! well done blue house!
-tied for first with yellow house for banner (: (i think we deserved first overall! hur.)
-tied for second with yellow house again! (kinda unexpected. but welll done cheerleaders! the dance was frikking cute :D )

special thanks to BLUE HOUSE COMM 07:
i can never thank yall enough for all the help and encouragement yall have given me! i wouldnt have been able to manage w/o you guys. THANKS MUCH! im sorry for all the times ive pmsed and shouted at yall :X you know i dont mean it. anyway. yall have been a GREAT COMM! im sure gonna miss all of you! -nut, tessa, clara, doralyn, jac and charlotte! I LOVE YALL! ((:

















and to all the runners, cheerleaders and people (who actually bothered) coming down for banner painting sessions,
A BIG THANK YOUUU TO YALL! :D

ANYWAY, i realised that life is all a frikking facade. people:
dont say things they mean.
fail to keep promises.
suck at keepin secrets.
act as if they care when they dont give a damn about you
smile to you when they're crying inside.
get involved in so much shit on purpose then complain that they're damn busy.

okay i do admit that im guilty of some. im just saying, everything is so pucking FAKEEEEEE. rars. i cant stand it. but after all, this is all part of human nature, aint it? ah well.

here's some pictures.

us receiving our medals (:

tessa and i (:

our pretty banner! :D

and again.. dont you think it deserves a first? heh.
















oh yes, i caught mr bean's holiday with tessa and doralyn today. its PUCKING HILARIOUS!
















us trying to imitate mr bean's funny expressions. HA

ROWAN ATKINSON(spell?) NEVER FAILS TO MAKE ME LAUGH. HAHAHA

CONFIRMATION CAMP!

con camp was good but pre-con was waaaaaaaaaay better. i reckon it'd be better if our own youth group facilitated our camp. ah well

speaking of pre-con camp, oh man. the memories!
and i cannot believe how bloody ego you can be! OH MY GAWWWWWD. wtf. i cant believe you actually said that! i cant believe how i was so head over heels when it came to you last time. it was pucking stupid of me. and i STILL CANNOT BELIEVE YOU TOLD PEOPLE THAT I WANTED TO PATCH UP WITH YOU, HOLD YOUR HANDS, ETC. WHAT THE HELL! YOU WERE THE ONE WHO DID THAT! please. why must you lie? are u feeling very insecure that u have to lie to yourself and others that ure very "wanted"? PUH LEASE. GET A LIFE DUDEEE! pucking bastard. im never gonna talk to you again.

whooooooooooo. that felt good. i know it certainly aint worth gettin upset over this, but it was bothering me throughout con camp. stupid. i hate you. RAWRS.

ANYWAY, i cant believe three years have past so fast! we're gonna get confirmed in about a month's time! you may call me an oxymoron, but part of me eagerly anticipates getting confirmed, but another part of me feels like im not ready for this. im afraid i'll just become a sunday catholic after getting confirmed ):

the best part of the camp was the confession man. i really opened up to father. it felt so good after sharing. (: its hard to express the feelings in ma own words but here's a song which they played:

Almighty God, The Great I Am,
Immovable Rock, Omnipotent,
Powerful,Awesome Lord.
Victorious Warrior, Commanding King of Kings,
Mighty Conqueror and the only time,
The only time I ever saw him run,
Was when...

Chorus:
He ran to me,
He took me in His arms,
Held my head to His chest,
Said "My son's come home again!"
Lifted my face,
Wiped the tears from my eyes,
With forgiveness in His voice
He said"Son, do you know I still love You?"
(End Chorus)

He caught me By surprise, When God ran...

Verse 2:
The day I left home,
I knew I'd broken His heart.
And I wondered then, if things could ever be the same.
Then one night,I remembered His love for me.
And down that dusty road, ahead I could see,
It was the only time,
It was the only time I ever saw Him run.
And then...

Repeat Chorus
He caught me by surprise.
And He brought me to my knees.
When God ran...
I saw Him run to me.

Bridge:
I was so ashamed, all alone, and so far away.
But now I know,
that He's been waiting for this day...
I saw Him run to me,
He took me in His arms,
Held my head to his chest,
Said "My son's come home again!
"Lifted my face,
Wiped the tears from my eyes,
With forgiveness in His voice I felt his love for me again.
He ran to me
He took me in His arms,
Held my head to his chest,
Said "My son's come home again!"
Lifted my face,
Wiped the tears from my eyes,
With forgiveness in His voice
He said "Son"He called me Son.
He said "Son, do you know I still love You?"
He ran to me (When God Ran)(I saw Him run to me)
And then I ran to Him (When God ran)
When God ran

the lyrics of this song is so damn touching ),: I LOVE YOU GOD!

"olinda's boyfriend" lookalike! (((:

I LOVE YOU FER!

AWESOME GOD!(:

ivan trying to act dao. tsk tsk

smile like you mean it (:

PUCKKKKK. wth is wrong with blogger?! why cant i change my template!?!!? and i have no idea how to put in my tagboard on this lousy template. URGHHHH.

anyway, this week has been one helluva week! i finally started normal trg! oooh. u have NO idea how much i missed trg! sigh. but its not the same anymore. i cant find my motivation to run anymore! WHERE IS IT. darn. what happened to the adrenaline rush? ): on a lighter note, besides the run, TRAINING ROCKED! although im still unable to do some of the drills. ah wells

netball finals were on monday. the juniors trashed st margs. well done juniors! (: but we lost to rgs quite badly. i guess we just werent playing up to par that day. and partly cos stef sprained her ankle damn badly during the second quarter. poor stef! i hope she's better! and i pray that she WONT end up like me! oh man. but anyhows, BDIV! YALL DID YOUR BEST! its okay. this is just a minor setback. we must learn from this and trash rgs during the nationals! yeahhh baby! haha

ohmygawddd. i screwed up physics prac on wednesday. ohmygoodness. i cant believe i was so stupid!! at first i did it correctly. getting the correct readings and all. but i only had three readings. and i finished my prac wayyyy before everyone else in the lab. something must be amiss. so i acted smart and took another three readings. which were TOTALLY irrelevant. my graph turned out having three points at the top. and three points below. so how the hell was i supposed to draw the best fit line?

plus, i mistook the connecting lid for a variable resistor cos i was thinking- mr ng prolly explained to the class that it was just a different looking variable resistor, and i happened not to be paying attention at that time. so yeah! but NO, it was a pucking connecting lid! aiyo. ohmagawd. mr ng is SO gonna tel 4/1 and 4/2 and ma whole class about it. but thats okay cos i practically ranted about this to everyone. i think i repeated myself at least 10 times. HA.

okay enough about my embarrassment. thursday finally came! last day of schooool! woohoooo! and fun training! the only bad thing about today was the receiving of report books. wth. i pucking got 26 points. how am i gonna get 7 points for o lvls at this rate??? SIGH. oh yeah. i've got a confession t make. i forged mommy's signature today. i shant go into details, but it was unintentional okay. heh

anyway, we had telematch for trg! it was soooo fun! except for the run. ): the best station was the eating station! my group came in first! HAHA. we're such pigs man. i swear. we came in first for a few other stations as well (: now we're tied for the first place with evil's group. darnn. nvm. we'll win eventually!

this week made me realise that with every good thing comes a bad one. ah well. if u know what i mean.

FALL OUT BOY!
omg. the fob concert totally rocked!!!! :D thanks geri! oh and much thanks to geri's cousin(timothy) and friend! (: im sorry that yall couldnt really enjoy the concert cos of geri and i :X both of us would have gotten seriously trampled on without yall.

aye. i used the f word so many times during the concert! i think im becoming more and more vulgar by the day. ah well. but it was helluva moshpit man! its my first time going to such a concert and i had NO frigging idea that it was gonna be THAT bad! people were pushing like nobody's business man! what happened to considerate singaporeans huh!

there was this angmoh guy who was half naked!(and EXTREMELY sweaty) and he kept leaning back on me. EWWWWWWW. so gross! and there was this other guy who CONSTANTLY pushed and stepped on ma toes till i couldnt take it anymore so i said" can u fucking stop pushing me" then he actually said "im so not pushing you" then right after that, he started pushing again! ^$#*&%$ BASKETTT.

and meanwhile, i lost my birkenstock in the crowd! wtf. i cant believe i was so stupid as to wear that for the concert! but thankfully, i found it amist the crowd. whoaaaa. BUT im not the stupidest. there were actually girls who wore heels! WTH. please luh. if they dont mind standing on heels for 3 hours, at least spare a thought for others! THREE of my toenails were damaged by all the trampling ),: pucking painful please!

OH YA. and someone please slap me for being so stupid. after geri and i moved to the back, we were complaining to these two ladies about how frigging crowded it was in front. and i said "i donno how girls can be so stupid to wear heels for this kinda concert" and the lady was wearing heels! AIYO. i deserve a slap man.

haha okay i think i've rambled on enough about the concert. haha. basically, the FOB CONCERT ROCKED ASSSSSSS! :D

can u see that angmoh guy? EEE.

HOT BASIST from saw loser! :D

haha its not that my photography skills suck okay. its ABSTRACT (:

FOB really knows how to get the crowd highhhh!

all sweaty after squeezing outta the crowd. but anyhows, I LOVE YOU GERI! (: