GUILT.

Today's one of the rare occasions that Isabelle Chong made it home before 4pm, aren't you prouda her? :P she even got down to washing her shoes who are about 2 months old(which look like they're about 2 years old). after which, she went to watch her recorded shows, while snacking on b&js icecream, a whole packet bbq curry flavoured twisites(which she stole from her brother), a banana, an oreo waffle stick. and she believes that her weight has increased by 1kg+++ in the past hour. and here she is, blogging when she's supposed to do her PI. cheerios to her.

haha okay, enough of the second person account. so.. i've been thinking on my journey home. and i realised how a horrible person i've been ): so disappointed in myself. today is the last day of school for one of my classmates whom i shall not mention who. and its also the first time i've actually spoken-spoken to her since being her classamate two months ago :S and i realised one of the reasons why she had decided to leave was partly cos of our class. and i feel terrible for that. had i been in her shoes, i wouldnt have had the courage to last for so long i reckon. and come to think of it, she hadnt even done anything horrible to me. i had judged her right from the beggining, succumbing to all the rumours i heard. i really shouldnt have. i deserve ten slaps. make that twenty :[

and seeing those tears in her eyes today, i felt even worse. unable to pretend like we didnt see her cry, joy kelly and i walked towards her and asked her if she was okay. at that point of time, i felt like sucha superficial, hypocritical biatch. i shouldnt have waited till the last moment to show some concern for her. stupid isabelle.

now, its too late to apologise
its too late

:(